那些年，那些長不大的男人

《那些年》和《挪威的森林》的文學水平不在同一個層次，但受到它們觸動的是同一類人。男人都是不願長大的生物，他們小孩子的時候固然是個小孩子，但長大以後，長出滿身的肌肉和汗毛，都還是個小孩子，分別只是他們的玩具從玩具車機械人變了女人、汽車、足球賽事。,

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Tags | 青少年

青春自然死亡

擦掉你的視線
就看不到我枯死的心
沉睡的慾念
一張年輕的臉
裝飾乾枯的靈魂
生活會毀滅生命
將你淹沒
直至你不再感到恐懼

像每個人一樣
朦朧的活著
清醒的入睡
像從沒有活過一樣
垂著一根瘦黃的臂
佈滿憂鬱的針痕

生活會毀滅生命
活埋酒神
直至不再聽見的哭笑
感覺不到血管的跳動

在這美麗的世界
再找不回曾經活過的我
那曾不怕趺倒的你
一定會鄙視這世故的我

Tags | 憂鬱症, 青少年

大學之道，在——不要搞寸老屎忽的party

抽水真的太容易。大學生就是其中一個手到拿來的題目。抽大學生的水，是上了位的社會賢達們最喜歡的消閒活動。年復一年，樂此不疲。究竟社會希望大學生是怎樣的大學生，是年年不同、依情況不同、依每個成年人所不同。總之，總能找到空隙去抽水。

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Tags | 本地事務, 青少年

軒哥事變

中二男生不知生於何許家庭，祖母給孩子四萬塊錢買吃的，於是加上幾部唉風科，拿回學校四處分派，條件乃同學同濟叫他一聲「軒哥」。事情鬧大了，訓導主任出名阻止，上了報，惹得大家羨慕非常，都想排隊叫人家一聲軒哥。那些平日沒事幹，薪高耀準的「專家」必然又有空間四處說話，真不知道成年人在搖頭晃腦地指責年輕人「金錢價值觀扭曲」時臉為甚麼不紅。 Read more…

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吊詭的性教育

記得小五還是小六左右，學校已經有一點點的所謂性教育。那是教甚麼來著，我都忘得七七八八了。初中的時候有科學課，科學書裡面有一個小章節是講性教育的。幸好我當時的並不是教會學校，老師對於私自撕掉性教育章節這類行動沒太大興趣，初中的時候，課上是有教過一些的。但那個時候的性教育是甚麼？橫切面。 Read more…

Tags | 性文化, 教育, 青少年

年輕的您

年輕的您，
您恨身上那張
光潔緊緻的皮膚。
年輕的您，
您像一隻燕子未曾展翅
便枯死墜落。

是您得罪了世界，
還是它欠了您的債。
您生氣蓬勃，
竟使世界感到生氣。

年輕的您，
年輕是您的原罪。
您背上十字架，
要被安放一千個罪名。

listen the song The Nobodies also, pic via here

Tags | 青少年

Festival and Civilization

When you get older and older, you will become so lazy for celebrating the festival days, especially the Christmas Day. In fact Christmas Day has become the most disagreeable festival for me. How come it has become so commercial and annoying? I have no idea, but the juiciest part of Christmas Day is that we can imagine what will they do in that night.

Few years ago adults had shown their concern on young people having sex in the night of Christmas eve but nothing seems to change. In my opinion, having sex on that day is at least better than waste money in shopping center, the last thing has become the core of holiday nowadays. Adults never understand that young people usually have no conscious, they love and hate just by their instinct, so do adults when they were children. The definition of Civilization is that people like to twist those nature things to evil as their habit.

You become lazy since you lost your childhood, you have forgotten what is it feel like of being a child. I still can remember it, being a child is like you standing in an eye of a violent storm which is mixed with confusion, hate and love. I didn’t celebrate the festival, in general, I don’t feel lonely, so I didn’t walk out on the street and seek someone to accompany. Have you guys ever think of flirting is tired for anyone? As i have written before, maybe two years ago I liked to flirt, that time is an unusual period for me, I am sure that I was insane. However, in general I hate doing this. I hear that some girls and boys like to flirt instead of keeping an “official” relationship with others, I do understand their thinking once.

Nevertheless I still think that flirt is a hard thing to do, when you want to flirt with someone, you have to concentrate a lot more than ever, simultaneously hide a part of yourself ineluctably to get what you want to get. I admit it flirt is quiet an exciting activity but for ordinary people is hard to do it all the time. Moreover you probably will have a girl friend or boy friend. Loyalty is always been the core of Civilization so called.

PICTURE VIA Lovers by *Sarachmet on deviantART

Tags | 男女關係, 英語文章, 青少年

Suppression of drugs as a political mission

I have been worrying the status of suppression of drugs in Hong Kong, there are many reports, interviews and even the advertisements, which about drug abuse in teenage group must be stopped, drugs is bad blah blah blah. I am sad to see that almost all of adults miss the point to save their children from drugs, and I am angry to hear that almost all of them are talking the shit.

Definitely the Establishment is using the media to affect the public opinion, as we know parents are easily affected by the media. The final result is those parents will agree all the political decision that Government would make for the school drug test. I can foresee that the Government will shamelessly treat this policy as its achievement at the end of the day. I have a complex feeling of this issue, as i said before the drugs abuse problem is not really critical compared with other well developed countries. The parents are terrified by the media that usually report the drugs abuse in schools.

Hence I never realize the point of the test for all secondary students, its totally wasting money to just annoying most of students who never take drugs. Besides the most ridiculous part is the test rarely find out those druggies, because of its low accuracy, of course many archives indicated it already. Also, without enough facilities and institutions, those druggies wont be better even they have been found out.

Unfortunately parents never concern that as an important problem, and it seems no one concede that we are just wasting our mone and do nothing to against the problem. Then what is the problem? The problem is I dont see this problem could be solved if the family and society keep falling and keep unconcerned. I dont think Donald has thought about it, either have parents. It is because Donald only cares about the appearance of Government will be improved by rudely imposing this policy.

A disastrous problem is it seems the adults in opposition to children make things worst. The point is not about their privacy blah blah blah but their living style in the modern world, which is usually full of pressure and unhappiness. Its easy to establish and devour in the name of moral, but its difficult to do the same thing with love and concern.We seldom talk about those words nowadays.

// images via Narcotics Division, Security Bureau
// 我戒，因為我被愛 | 香港獨立媒體

Tags | 毒品, 英語文章, 青少年

孤城孽子

我不是那些面對噓聲的學生，無從了解他們的感受，但我想他們已經感受到社會對年輕人的敵視。一群大人為著自己的利益爭個面紅耳熱，一個唔該他們就被擺了上檯。為甚麼曾狗唐唐等人都要出聲談論？說到底不過是在此六月熱天，個個高官心裡惦念著民意民意，生怕一個唔該又來一個公關或政策災難，壯了遊行人數——梅窩的人慣了走遠路，出來港島遊行易過食菜是不是？

梅窩那群，其中當然不乏思想單純的師奶呀婆，一心純情為了捍衛梅窩民風，識見所限，亦屬正常。但亦有不少機心乘亂搶掠之之輩——正生要來，你卻要說要先在空置場地重新辦一所「正常」學校。說到爭取利益，本無不可，但迷糊焦點，用心卻險。說甚麼國際學校、咩咩小學應該優先擴建的謬論，說到底就是甚麼用途也好，總之不要正生書院。說得正生好像是美沙銅中心，學生會散播奪命病毒。大家為甚麼那麼偽善？心底裡，他們就是不想正生書院接近自己，不想正生的牌子天天提醒自己這世界並不是烏拓邦。行動極盡野蠻，卻要搬出一大堆似是而非的藉口，甚麼「梅窩小學不夠地方，應該預留丟空的校舍給他們擴建」、甚麼「區內學校不足，子女需要花很多錢和時間前往市區上學，政府應先解決梅窩教育問題」，不得了的虛偽。要是當地學生足夠，當年學校緣何被殺？還是家長們都把兒女送到市區，以致該校最終收生不足？若然不是，學生不足就是當地現實，將來辦了新學校不又是步其後塵收生不足而被宰？算了吧，不喜歡就不喜歡，好像一個老婆婆衝出來明言不歡迎他們，是極其無情和令人厭惡，但至少老實。

又有一個女人在電視前說如果這事臨到你們頭上，相信你們的反應與我一樣。說得理直氣壯，無比自然。我聽著嗤聲笑了出來，卻又是一陣深沉的悲涼——你們別哭，這吃人的城市已涼薄慣了，我們只得戰鬥。士可殺，不可辱。他們噓你，索性噓番佢地。

插圖：Child by ~Blood-of-the-Dragon

Tags | 毒品, 青少年

這世界，太多懺悔羞怯

人這東西雖然長得很不像動物，但無論宗教、文明、習俗怎麼偽裝，人始終是動物的一員。自然界終有其法度，生老病死，人們都把目光聚焦在老、病和死。但生可以是出生，也可以是生長。萬物生枯都有循軌規律，時間到了就是到了，你阻止不了毛蟲成蝶，自然亦阻止不了後生仔女動情搞野。

道德家把最高的道德標準對準在禁慾的肚臍眼上，無疑很有戰天戰地的難度和氣概。但他們不明白，你看見他們每天跟不同的異性（或同性）愛憎交纏的時候，他不一定知道自己在做甚麼。這不過是本能的一種伸展，背後推動爐灶的是本能，腦袋沒有角色擔當。正如我可以斷言，那段地鐵激吻Try Her Breast短片中的男女，當時他們也不知老豆姓甚名誰。為甚麼要知道呢？這是一種設計，時候到了，就要物色對像和發泄精力。尤如脫韁野馬，禮義廉恥都要統統讓路。

況且大家要明白，本地青少年跟香港人一樣，生活異常枯燥。所有人都不過是學校的一個編號、身份證上一個號碼、就業市場上的一件貨。於是，在後工業時代的集體物化環境裡，每個人都經歷過一種自我與體制的矛盾。而現下教育制度無法疏理這種矛盾，反而將之激化。在教制裡每個原該有凌有角的學生，在考試制度裡以單一標準壓縮成貨品，於是新世代出現了一種存在感的失去。當我們不再能驅分自己和他人，自我的意義便漸漸流失。如此，即形成了一種恐慌和空虛。空虛的學生去吸毒。恐慌的人們便在這充滿了「進修、增值、讀書」的城市裡找尋一些可以令人生稍得意義的東西。

於是，這城分出了一支港男港女的物慾系、又下開一支為情生為愛死的戀愛系。為甚麼？因為在戀愛中，他們感到自己有了價值。在這段關係中，我們感到自己是獨一無二的，不再是貨架上的一件貨、學校裡的一個學號。在戀愛中，我們得到了的滿足，價值的失而復得。於是，我們可以解釋和明白，為何中學生總是拍拖拍到阿媽都唔認得。他們被世界、被社會榨得貧脊的靈魂，太過饑渴。戀愛本來就深具成癮性，到了他們面前，便立即成了鴉片，而在這個大學生竟然被人標價四千元的亂世，會考10A也不過拔尖入U。大學又再重新洗牌，還有畢業後的就業競爭呢？一個個燥動不安的軀體，被初葫的情慾焚灼至斯，成年人亦無從指引提點。既然努力十之八九白費，為何不去談戀愛、去上床做愛？未來畢竟太過遙遠，眼下的快感卻伸手可及。

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這一篇本來打算用「青春殘酷物語」來作標題，但考慮到search engine上同樣結果實在太多，便作罷。但無意又按下滑鼠，搜出了林夕寫的《青春殘酷物語》，標題一句取自其中。

插圖：The new generation by ~Ferruti

Tags | 性文化, 青少年