Wandering in old times

Transformer Van

we always look at the sunlight

這些日子很難描述，這幾天，我陷入了一種奇異的狀態。我好像沒甚麼可以說了，我很耐心地生活，我也寫東西，但我感覺自己似乎失去了動力，這種感覺很糟，我似乎失去了活力，肉體的心靈上的，我只是活著，然後我寫了一篇短短的小說。這些現在記錄下來，已變成過去式了。我能說甚麼呢，這些日子過得那麼糟，我也不想好好記住，然後這裡也有點雜草了，也是時候除草了。

回家的時候，有隻藥房養的貓溜到街上曬太陽，一點也不怕人，人來人往的街上，那頭貓那麼悠哉悠哉。我總像這頭貓一樣看著有陽光的方向。

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a good day

雖然研究指有太陽的日子自殺的人比雨天陰天的更多，惜於我來講，連續了整個月的陰鬱天氣差點就要了我的小命。空氣厚得令人叫人呼吸不能。天天都是陰陰沉沉的下雨天，叫人焦躁不安，差點就以為時不與我，又要舊患發病。幸而今天難得有一整天柔和的陽光和風。

記遊澳門

小時候家裡有事，要去珠海，經澳門。那時對外出甚是厭惡，那一趟也是大人手指之下迫著的就範，不變的是當日的人山人海亦舊，當時只是隨著家人買馳名手信、坐公車時又覺回到了國內——總之感覺就不像香港，有點北地的陌生。

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The Cat

Yesterday i walked on the street to back home, and i saw two cats hidden in the field where were near the road. Then i took some photos for them,but they didn’t scare me, the blown one stared at me very peacefully as if they knew me very much.

My god, these cats are very very cute cute.

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Some snapshot by wandering on street

I have to admit it, i have nothing to do on this shinning Sunday. Although I hate it, but it just a opportunity to practice how to be alone with myself. Its strange, i can be alone with myself very naturally few years ago. And what’s going on with me this lately days. Maybe it due to the explosion of loneliness. Loneliness? It sounds like a really bullshit from a children.

And its not the most important things. My doctor said that I have to stay away from this kind of relationship, it effect my emotion very obviously. And I know that of course, as a druggie always know that he should stay away from drugs. Everybody know that what is bad for us without doubt. But unforturnately common mortal just like me wont chose to be distant from what they lust for, even it suffering us or generate the destruction at the end.

For make myself busy , i wandering on streets to take some snaphotos, and its a shinning day. The sky is burning, everything in the street is luminous except my heart. Its a really good and sarcasm weather.

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Losing

我想不到有甚麼時間要比昨晚更難過，吵了一架，其實有甚麼好吵呢，然後睜不開兩眼看命運光臨，我們好久以前已失去彼此了，我明知這點的，我還可以有甚麼生氣呢。或許我只為我沒有資格生氣而生氣，但實情是，我們好久以前已失去彼此了。

去看醫生時火車裡有一個外國男人，拉著一個貼滿貼條的行李箱，頗是可愛。其實我有甚麼能對醫生說呢？最悲哀的，不就是連自己覺得悲哀的事情，也得跟一個陌生人講，而不是親人、朋友？手掌和腳掌出汗，手又震，醫生說可能是甲狀腺的分泌失調，星期一要去拿新的身份證，還有抽血檢查，所謂屋漏偏逢連夜雨，就是如此。

Broken Hardisk

前幾天小白忽然壞了，過了保護，唯有將之抬到麥客居修理，起初以為是底版壞了，真是嚇得心臟病發，無妄之災。後來證實是硬碟壞了，就得換了一個，很是麻煩肉痛。

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