認識了兩天的女生，她的談吐出奇地知性，是這個年紀少見的。她是那種有點肉地和身材，不太會刻意節食減肥的類型，言談間才知以前她竟然是圓滾滾的，只是十八歲之後才瘦身的。幸好香港地還有瘦身成功卻未被放到廣告上意淫的個別例子。

她使我想到小時候聽過的故事：有個女人參加別人的婚禮，新郎很俊美，但談吐舉止卻不是俊男的典型，然後女人就問他，小時候是不是個小胖子，新郎驚訝，因他是婚禮之前才減肥的，又追問女人為何知道。最後女人有沒有回答、或回答了甚麼，我忘了。但，有些人是如此，外表和內在不是完全一樣，也是好的，想像一下，這個新郎如果從小到大都是個美男子，那這個美男子的外表育成的心靈，一定有很多通病：自大、自我、混身散發著一種高高在上的悍氣；這點男女亦同，香港女生樣子不差，又懂打扮，但很多外表美麗的，開口卻總會把你嚇壞：腦袋空洞不在話下，懶音頻頻亦聽到你耳側、熟讀滿口三字經，廣招觀音兵恃靚行兇以使男人錢買名牌為榮的，不計其數。

我在想，人們小時候還是笨一點好。太有自覺，長大後反而銳角處處，刺手扎口。

今天又聚了一聚。今天我有種很明顯的怪誕感，覺得自己一言一行，都似是Flirt。對於Flirt，有段失控的時間，我樂於如此，可能當時對這些事情，有點灰心、憤怒無處發泄，便四處Flirt。Flirt了個幾兩個月，便覺得厭：一個去了一個又來，事情其實也不過如此。然後便自然不再Flirt，乖了很多。今天雖是她約我，但是在家的時候我主動吻她，在中段她說：「你總好像知道我在想甚麼」然後又一句：「是好事還是壞事呢」，我不太清楚，也許她是指……一些時機性的東西，我太過掌握了嗎？

她是一個處女座的女生。

It is quiet difficult to record my lately daily life. The exam period was began already, and it will finish on 20th June, I guess i will have many plans, and it is many work need to be done in the summer vacation, or I will just waste my vacation very gladly and shallowly, haha.

The exam is boring, not the big deal, just the piece of cake, except the mathematics subject that I gave up instinctively long time ago. There are no pressure in this state practically. The sleeping pills is necessary still, in this state. And now my only problem is just the bad sleep, I seldom felt very depress in these several moths, except sometimes feel quiet lonely, just like this second, so I write these piece of shit. They are all my affectional weakness.

Of course the influence of the unpredictable weather always make me impatience, and loath to move or speak. Weather has its witchcraft, at least for me.

Last weekend I finished a medium-sized fiction, call “Lest We Forget“. I don’t think it is a digestible work, the novel is about the politic, nation and government. Because I had wrote a medium-size fiction “An Actor From Paris” before, a grand topic about crazy love and hate between people. In a short period. i don’t want to repeat the same topic or element.

You can check the works page also and download it.