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My doctor always remind me i have to go to sleep before 10:30 every night, but mostly I can’t do it . Lately sleep is my habit since I step in my teenage period, maybe 15 to 16 I was a person only come out at night, but I cant keep this habit due to my earthling’s business. Many things have to be finish and awake under the sun is necessary……They call it “regular life”. So ironic. hmm.

Simultaneously my transition is keep proceeding. All my attitude about the world and people is changing. I can feel it, and few days ago I talked to my doctor, about I was put down those person who were trapped me mentally, and I have no idea who can I do it. Perhaps its all about the hormone, actually my mind is quiet positive lately…… I care nothing, i have no expectation of anyone. Persons, my close friend and company give me their comfort sometimes, but I can’t expect the next time.

I have no expectation for them, even I love them, but I must hold my heart very carefully, especially for it’s fragility. I know it quiet clearly now. Every meeting is my bonus, I expect nothing of my sweethearts. I am afraid that “No expectation” is the only way to crack the spell of love.